Friday, December 31, 2010

Thorns, Roses and Rosebuds - Via Jana WOOHOO!

 I just started again at "THE TWITTER".  I am so bad about keeping up with things like "Blogging" and "Twitter" and "Laundry".  Ok, I just threw that last one in to see if you were paying attention.  ANYWAYS..I have found a wonderful new group of people to follow at The Twitter and @Jana0926 is one of them.  She blogs like a goddess over at Jana's Thinking Place.  (go there, she is awesome)  On her blog, she created her very first MEME.  (Which I always pronounced ME-ME because I could...but the super cool man friend frowns upon me when I do it.  hehe!) is my post in response to Jana's meme.  You are welcome.  Maybe.

 THORN - Gosh.  Jana.  This is harder than it looked.  I have sat here just staring at the screen trying to come up with something to type.  OK.  Um.  THORN - I am going to have to go with, OMG.  I have no freaking clue.  Everything is just so great right now.  I know what hell I lived through in 2010 but without it, I would not be where I am right now, in this moment.  So we are going to skip this part right now.  Mm'kay?

1.  Having my son back in my life FULL TIME has been so wonderful.  It about tore me to pieces last year when I had to ask his Dad to take him.  I know it was the only option and it kept him safe, but I missed him every hour.  I am so thankful he is home now.

2.  My second ROSE is having real relationships again.  Especially with my friends and my family.  I was not aware at how cut off I was.  Spending time with my friends these last few months has been so rewarding.  Feeling the love from my family and knowing that they will be there for me NO MATTER WHAT is priceless.

1.  I look forward to seeing the relationship between myself and my super cool man friend blossom.  He makes everyday brighter and full of laughter and joy.

2.  I want to work on strengthening my friendships (like Jana is doing) both inside the computer and in my REAL life.

3.  And OMG I am totally looking forward to my cruise which departs in 16 days that my super cool man friend got me for my birthday!!  Sun and Sand, here we come!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

My New Year's Resolutions

Yeah, I totally suck at this blogging thing.  OH well.  You still love me and that is all that matters.

Okay.  So I am going to make some New Year's Resolutions, Yo. 

1.  Continue NOT Smoking. - I don't know why, but I have been dying for a cigarette lately.  I mean, it has been 6 months!  At Christmas, I ran outside with the other *Smokers*, stole one drag and was all...EWWWWW.  So I don't know why I can't kick this craving to the curb.

2.  Continue making healthy choices when it comes to my body - Which basically means, continue NOT drinking soda.  Get all your water each day.  EXERCISE.  And watch what you put in your mouth.  Yay.

3.  Find a New Job.  One with security and stability.  I really want to go back into banking.  Let's see if we can make this happen.

4.  Continue to take things as they come with regards to the super cool man friend.  I swear to god, this is the most sane I have ever been in a relationship.  Months later, it is still effortless.  So I will choose to let it stay that way.  I will not get in my own way here.  I won't read into anything nor will I create problems that do not exist. 

5.  I will try to blog.  That is all I am saying, TRY.  Don't push me here.

Happy New Year!  I know 2011 HAS to be loads better than 2010.  Loveyameanit!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


If ya'll have never watched Crank so will not understand me.  I found episodes on Comedy Central on the internet and sat down and watched all the Special Ed ones.  So now I am hooked on the word YAY!!!!

Ten more days and I will finally be able to get back on my diet.  I am so excited this year for Thanksgiving (which will be my first loading day) because:
1.  It is the first year that I do not have to cook
2.  I will get to try Fried Turkey for the first time (don't be jealous)
3.  I will get to spend a wonderful day with my BFF and her extended family and my new manfriend.


I have a picture to post...but I am lazy.  So neener neener.  Maybe later.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

So, how are ya?

I know.  I have been away.  I got a little frustrated with where I ended up.  I almost GAVE up.

I am in the maintenance phase of my diet.  I really have not been watching what I eat.  But I am excited to announce that I have not had a gain so I guess that is freaking awesome!

Most of you know that I am starting Round 2 on Thanksgiving Day.  I am ready to begin anew and try to lose another 20 lbs this time.  Of course I am hoping for 30 but I will be ecstatic with 20.

In other news...I met someone.  Yeah.  Weird.

You know, I was really going to just work on me this year.  Just take some time and get all right with myself.  Most of you know what my life has been like for the past few years.  Trauma and Drama.  Major!  I was done with that.  Finished.

That is why it is so weird that I find myself in a whole lotta like with someone new in my life.  We met on Sunday.  He took me out to dinner.  A Real DATE!  My first since the divorce.  It was really nice.  We have a lot in common.  We had great conversation and I laughed when a waiter (not ours) came up and joined in as it must have been very interesting.  Not an awkward moment the whole evening.

We have spent quite a bit of time with each other since Sunday.  He came to dinner Tuesday night and brought my kid a board game which he created himself.  How awesome is that?  We are hoping to play it this weekend sometime.  He is thoughtful and easy going.  No drama.  BEST PART!!  HE is friends with his ex-wife.  Even with no children involved.  It is not very often that you find that.

I know I made a promise to myself that I would not get involved seriously with someone for at least a year.  I know what kind of hell I lived through the past year and I will NEVER repeat it.  But I can't just pass him by and not even give it a chance.  I don't want to throw away something that might be great just because I am still raw from being burned.  I don't know.

You guys and girls don't have to remind me to be careful.  I am OVER careful.  I over analyze everything.  I question everything.  I never take anything spoken as truth.  It is painful.  But I am protecting myself and my child.  My rules.  He is cool with that.  And I appreciate that very very much.

Right now, I am just going to enjoy the happiness he brings into my life daily with his enthusiasm and his joy for life and his love for animals and nature and art and Transformers.  I will just revel in the fact that he finds joy in my presence as well.  And that little things like reading a story together or cooking him dinner just make him so appreciative.  (*I just noticed my gratuitous use of the word appreciative in this post, great word*) And we will go from here.  Nothing will be forced.  We will just let life happen and in the end, see where we end up.  I deserve a little happiness dang it.  So I am not going to feel bad about breaking a promise to myself.

How are things with YOU?